Have you ever looked at someone and thought oh my gosh I love you. Ugh you are so stupid why do you have to look at me like that holy crap I love you so much you are so dumb I can’t take this why am I even attracted to you I just want you so bad come here you stupid adorable thing shut up I love you I’m going out of my mind
We got lost on the way home.
maybe it was all in my head,
but it felt like we got lost on purpose.
We drove for hours through places
neither of us have ever seen,
and the carelessness we had
was beauty itself.
He joked that maybe
we would end up in New York City,
and we laughed at our hometown signs,
as of they were foreign to us.
and I missed him when he left.
What is happiness
if when it leaves
pain takes it’s place.
wrapped in ignorance
the wrong address
why do people say “ew it smells in here” in public restrooms. of course it smells. the room is literally used for people to dump waste out of their body.
Up all night
With my racing mind
So let it be over
Your brown eyes
If we’re careful nobody will notice
that we ran far away from them all
and the dust kicked up by our footprints
will say more than we ever could before.
I am so on the edge and running away from everything has never felt so appealing to me before. How have I become so insignificant to the people around me? They make decisions for me, they put words in my mouth, they assume things of me. Meanwhile these same people have never cared to get my opinion on anything they are talking about. And even if they do, i guess they just don’t care. How am I so insignificant. How am I so easy to bulldoze? This has been such a pattern in my life. I don’t know how to stop it from happening. I don’t know how to truly matter to someone and have what I think actually count.